Like I’ve told you, I think you should yell, be a big ol’ grump, curse, scream, have any actions, reactions, feelings you want. If someone who loves you doesn’t like it they will get over it. You can apologize if necessary or you can remind others as I do that “it’s just the pain talking” (all types of pain). You are entitled to whatever you feel. I wonder what it would be like for those around you if you weren’t such a strong, determined person????? I wonder what it would be like for them if you were like some I’ve known and were hysterical much of the time, blamed everything and everyone for what has occurred, and did not cooperate with anything to help themselves; or ordered people around constantly; and worse????? Remember that the two who live with you are men and this says a lot. Also, others who have not gone through what you have really have no idea how you feel as to pain and difficult physical accomplishments. Others can see you move and/or stretch and not have any idea what it costs you. Tell them!!!!! Tell them often!!!!! Telling them is a gift to them so that they can understand that they should be very, very thankful that they have not been through anything similar as to the pain, and more, that you have been through and are continuing to go through. They should be thankful for this every moment of every day!!!!!!! Love now and forever to you.

@Derek - I’m pretty damn sure I’m just as stern with myself as any occupational therapist would be, but also taking it easy as well since it’s be dumb to push too hard and screw up such a good thing!

It is obvious you are your own physical therapist! But I would expect no less from my wonderfully strong-willed sister!

Keep it up!! Love you and see you soon! =)