Oct 01 2010
Energy and stamina are still coming back online from being almost dead and the subsequent recovery. For your information, being almost dead is apparently really draining on the body’s resources. Surgery also. Combine the two and you’re looking at a minimum of several months of not-optimal functioning — and that’s if you’re healing rapidly!
As you can imagine, any major change in activity or health during this time will slow down recovery even more. Since surgery, I’ve taken back over house management duties including meal supplying and prep; taken on full-time parenting duties, including two hours a day of chauffeuring; had several weeks of sinus drainage and subsequent nausea; and one or two other things I might discuss elsewhere that are nevertheless similarly physically draining.
Needless to say (but I will), the writing has suffered. Surprisingly, I was actually managing to sustain regular writing and editing up until this month’s sinus/allergy attack (fuck you, autumn). The past three weeks I’ve averaged maybe one or two writing sessions a week (mostly blog entries, though the Callie ones definitely count for writing), and tons of reading research (back to the Crime Library and Wikipedia). This is significantly down from 4-5 sessions a week plus research time, much of that non-blog writing. Le sigh.
I’m obviously past another level on the path toward pro if I’m whining about ONLY getting 1-2 writing sessions plus research time a week like that’s slacking. Which, for where my writing is at and needs to be, it IS slacking. It’s good to remember where I’m at and where I’ve been, how doggedly I kept writing and editing up to a week before surgery, how quickly I was back to it afterward given my health levels (research from the first week out, writing from a month out). And also remember how much I am daily pushing my body to the limits of what it can do, so that I can extend those limits, and how careful I must be to not over-extend past limits — there’s a very important difference between pushing and pushing over. And one thing the cancer experience teaches even us incredibly stubborn over-achievers is how to discern the healthy side of that limit line.
I’m mostly past the sinus stuff. My always awesome and excellent editor Mary Bass (message me if you need contact info for pro editing!) has given me edits for most of the stories I currently have finished (there might be a couple I haven’t dug up to send her yet somewhere). This weekend I might even get some editing time in on updating a few. I suspect over the next few months I’ll ramp up and wrap up a few large outstanding projects as well as meet my “stories out circulating” goals.
And then I’ll take a month off to just read. Read for fun, what a shocking idea!
After that it’ll be time to start the second novel. Which already has half-a-dozen people eagerly awaiting it. That’s a nice feeling.
Staying alive is definitely worth the journey, but only if you fill your life with as much love and creativity as you can fit in.